4 Weeks Here and Magic Blue Budgies

Zoe and Bubbles at sunset in Australia.

 My Dearest Zoe, 

It has been 4 weeks now since we arrived in Australia to finally meet you. I intended to write to you more frequently but we all were caught up in the whirlwind of being together after such a long time. We focused on the healing of our hearts that were hurting from the absence of each other. I think we were doing grief work that was deep and loving. We all feel so fortunate that we are finally at this point where we can begin again with this life of seeing each other across the globe much more frequently.

While here a lot has happened. Your mom's suffering due to a precancerous lesion in her thumb has become clean of bad cells and is healing. That is a worry off our minds. She had Covid before we arrived and also suffered due to her being immune compromised of getting rid of the virus. It is gone now. So healing has happened on many fronts. 

Things have changed in our dynamics of being together and the biggest part of the change is you are in our lives too. As days moved on in the first week of being here I could see your mom in you. She was a little blonde toddler with the beginning of curls just like you. I have been impressed with your sense of self and the ease at which you are in the world. Like your cousin, Freyja you have welcomed us into your life with warmth and smiles and that tiny hand that reaches for ours so you can guide us to the play place. Freyja is just ahead of you in age so I see the stages she went through just a few months ago in you now. Your words are forming, your stance is steadier, your play is more imaginative. You are becoming you.

I am so loving the loving that your mom is heaping upon us. We can still snuggle on the couch in a blanket holding each other and enjoying our chats even in our "old" age. We have had so many of these times as our relationship was shaped and formed with so much challenge we had to face for so many years. I wanted to write these letters to you as a way to tell you more about your mom. I know you will learn about these qualities as you grow up in her care. You will see how smart and determined she is. Not only that, you will find that her understanding of life, its challenges and its magic are profound and have been why she is still here and why you are here too.

The day your mom was born and we came home from the hospital in time for dinner I noticed a white cosmos had bloomed in my garden. It is in my mind to this day, that beautiful flower. It touched me and let me know all was good and magic was happening. In my young mind I too was a seeker and a believer in cosmic signs and inner guidance. Maybe my beliefs rubbed off on her and her sister too as their mother. And perhaps you too will learn the world is magic from your mom. I hope so.

I can not remember all of the coincidences and serendipity that came to us over the years, but I do remember some of them. And, one of the most important healers and magical people in our lives still has had an influence all the way in Australia. It is Lama Gangha.

After your mom nearly died as an 18 month old, slightly younger than you are now, and she was in recovery from her illness we were invited to meet a special Tibetan teacher and wonderful man, Lama Gangha. He was living near by. I took her a few times per week for healing pujas with him. These were Tibetan rituals, prayers, the laying on of hands and blessed herbs to heal her body and cleanse the negativity from her. The herbs were small morsels of roasted herbs that we called Lama Gangha nummy numms. She loved them and loved being in his presence receiving his healing. Gradually she grew stronger until he said there was no more need for these special pujas. My life changed with Lamala and I took refuge with him and studied with him.

Lama Gangha was in our life for about 5 years and passed away during a trip back to Tibet. It was so right that he should pass there in his homeland with other lamas caring for his transition. He passed just before your Aunt Sara was born. He had given me guidance and healing for that pregnancy and her birth as well. She was blessed by Lama Gangha too. The coincidences of Lama Gangha played out in many ways but one that was very significant was he had the same birthday as your mom and was born exactly 50 years before her. They shared the same birthday! I thought that was remarkable.

Sometimes he went on trips to other meditation centers and would come back with gifts for his students. There was one of these gifts that I kept forever. It was a little coin purse with blue budgie parakeets on it. I let your mom play with it but always kept it safe. It was a little over two years ago before the pandemic hit that I had to take that little gift out once again to give to your mom. It was a sign that Lama Gangha had visited or influenced or created some magic many years ahead for your mother that she desperately needed. It was at that time that she was very sick with an infection that was extremely worrisome to us. It was not clear that she would recover from it. One day in early January she was able to leave the hospital and go for a walk with your dad near the ocean and a magical thing happened. From that moment on she began to heal and recover. 

 While walking, a blue budgie flew from the trees to the top of her head and would not leave her. It was a wild bird that came to give her a message of hope. Right when this happened I got a text and call about the magic of the budgie while we were with friends in a circle sending healing prayers to her. The synchronicity of that moment was profound. Shortly after the budgie visitation I remembered the coin purse that was in my drawer. I knew that bird arrived because of Lama Gangha. His healing pujas were still at work. This is some of the magic that I want you to know about Zoe. It was seven and a half months later that you were born and she became your amazing mother. Lama Gangha was there for you too.

This life is filled with magical occurrences like this. You will experience them in your life too. It just takes you being aware and open and believing in them to recognize them. In honor of the blue budgie and Lama Gangha a blue budgie is on the door of your beach shack. That shack and that painting is a reminder of miracles and wonderfulness that is in this life. As your grandmother I am here to remind you of this while your mother teaches this to you too. May you be surrounded by people who love synchronicity and magic and coincidence and serendipity and blue budgies!

Love,  Bubbles

P.S. Your mom reminded me of something else and I need to add to this letter. When you were still just  "to be", your mom still had some Lama Gangha nummy numms and shared them with your unicorn surrogate mother, Michelle and your daddy too. His blessing was there to create the magic of you! And as was the story I shared of the birth of your mom and the single white cosmos blooming on your birthday, a protea opened announcing your birth! Nature is there to give us beauty and messages of hope.